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Feb. 9th, 2006 @ 01:50 pm
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I screamed fuck at a priest, and almost burnt my vagina off with mace(long story just ask..). I'm an undecided major now.. lonely in this big ass city. i want to go home.Current Mood:  depressed Current Music: Metal Heart-Garbage |
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Why in the fuck would I pick a catholic university??? I mean its a nice school.. but its too small.. the anti abortion pictures really piss me off.. and the nuns.. everywhere. I go to holy family university in NE philly now.. but i hate it.. and am probably gonna take a semester off to fucking get a grip here because i'm just like barely holding on to this whole university thing by a thread.
currently waiting for honors writing to start... eating a pretzel... at 10:45am.. oh well i don't believe there is any reason why i CANT be eating my pretzel now. damn straight.
anyways, the murder rate in philly is up, highest since 97.. so im gonna go to honors writing then proceed back here to my dorm room to hide under my hello kitty blanket. holler...Current Mood:  groggy |
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Dec. 14th, 2004 @ 10:08 pm
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well it's been awhile.. but thats just an awful pattern this journal has. I've been working in a restaurant/pub for the past month now.. doing alright I guess. School work also keeps me busy.. I let nexus unregister almost two weeks ago.. So I haven't been doing that which is a healthy thing to be able to say.
andrew's grandfather died... i feel really awful.. but he seems to be getting along okay I guess.. I just worry. dave just texted me.. someone at his college got shot.. i don't understand what is so wrong with the world at this time of the year. i already feel down and out, but jesus fucking christ can i breathe please? i'm so preoccupied with bad thoughts in my mind that my days seem to be much too depressing and i'm just left to relfect with a bad taste in my mouth.
and with that.. i really cant think of anything much else to say because I really don't know who even reads this thing anymore....Current Mood:  okay |
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Jul. 4th, 2004 @ 12:21 pm
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Amazing how I can aviod posting in this thing for so long, even with so much shit on my mind, and lack of friends to be here for me, just to even talk to =/ I find myself at work all the goddamn time, listening to the 60 year old dishwasher lady talk about her teenage years acid tripping and other things... which is sad that is the rare amusement I find, besides doing everything but indian smoke signals to let greeters know "hey that guys hot! sit him in my section!!" I need a new job though, this one really gets me down. The bosses suck, the nightshift cooks are unusually mean on weekends, and now I got the forty plus hours I dont feel like working at all. Fuck. So yeah, job hunting this week, as well as getting back insurance and going to have my ear taken care of, had an ear infection for almost two weeks, just keeps getting worse. Been having alot of trouble with people in general, though it tends to be more men than women. Apparently I'm a scammer on nexus now too, woofuckinghoo. Can't say two words about how you want to be paid back/what my options are, but you can run around proclaiming how I scammed you. Wonderrrfullll. Then again I guess I talk my shit too, but I've kept my mouth shut about alot of things. Why, who knows.. But yeah, my expiration runs out 7/7, I don't even know about reregistering anymore. I got ee, fucking work so I miss most fox hunts/carnages/elixirs, and apparently I've lost all appeal in every way possible leading to the point where I've opted considering myself the antichrist. irl. Current Mood:  gloomy Current Music: the voices telling me to burn down denny's!!!!!!! =D |
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welll.... things have been busier than lately. workin hustlin those coffees and burgers to people. gotta <3 being a waitress. people have been trying to call me alot lately out of the blue... usually i'm at work or asleep so I feel bad but fuck it, where the HELL were you a month ago when i was depressed?! hah oh well. anyways. i'm dreaming of my upcoming pedicure and getting my nails done, which will be when I get my first paycheck, the 27th. talk about bliss =D anyways yeah. been sorting out baseball cards with my mom, selling them on ebay. we're having a huge yardsale tomorrow too, which hopefully brings in some decent cashola. other than that... nothing much has any pull on my life, at least enough to tell you random fuckers ago so, adios!Current Mood:  jubilant Current Music: Memphis bleak feat Jay-z and Missy-Is that your bitch |
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well..
I did my orientation yesterday for my new job.
I start training today...
6 training days of 6 hours...=/
Oh well tips will be good eventually...
I hope =P
josshhh is ignoring me on nexus so im bored enough to post.
hmm
i wanna tan in the morning, dunno if i'll make it that long
kinda.. tired
should be well rested for training, but ehh
can't force sleep.
anyways..
god im boring.
May. 13th, 2004 @ 05:17 am
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things lately are so blah there isn't a word for it..
i mean i got a job.. i go fill out paper work on monday..
but its waitressing again just like i did last summer...
hopefully this summer will be different.
unfortunatly I doubt my luck will change...
it never has.
well..
because of overwhelming depression i cant write anymore.
May. 6th, 2004 @ 11:58 pm
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grrr... i hate living here. I hate his place, i hate the people, i hate the weather, i hate the dirt, the grass, the trees, the bugs, EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so ready to just pick up and run off... and never, EVER come back. I'm sick of people who pretend to be your friend. I'm sick of people who invite you out and then never call you back. I hate people who talk to me just because I'm a walking pair of breasts. I hate people who call me to ask favors, but are never there for me.
i hate you.
"Now there's something you should know about, I'm chronically depressed, I internalize my hatred, And sacrifice myself. Now I am busy saturday, But I am free tonight, And I might have to sort you out, If you don't do it right"
Apr. 26th, 2004 @ 03:11 pm
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Wellll.. my weekend was pretty uneventful. Friday night I did absolutely nothing.. Saturday during the day I hung out with Amanda.. that night went to the track with my mom and we sat around losing bets, talking about my grandfather, and things he knew about betting.. apparently my mom didn't pick up the pointers that well cause we lost aroud 50 bucks.. was neat just uh chillin with mom dukes. we drove past my aunts house to see if this guy she has PFA against was there, cause we think shes lying to us and still sees him.. he wasn't there, at least his car wasn't.
today we went and got ice cream..
that was the main highlight of my day..
yay pineapple sundae.
god i'm boring.
Apr. 26th, 2004 @ 01:34 am
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www.illwillpress.com
(i even own a foamy tank top and matching thongs.)
Apr. 23rd, 2004 @ 12:21 am
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